KNOW... YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

and it is NOT in your head!!!!

Ironically...

I took a peek at my blog today;

and noticed that Samantha

had just left a comment...

Once I read what she wrote..

I was deeply saddened of what she is

having to go through.

~Samantha, you are not alone.~

Keep up the fight!

You know yourself the best,

and you also know there are many other

people out there that are going through the

same or worse... So please BE STRONG!!!

I know it is not easy.

(not sure if this helps in any way...

but I take chemo drugs and anti-malaria drugs,

every single day.... just to try and live

'a normal life')

Seriously...

If you ever need to talk,

I am here for you.

You can always e-mail me,

tomarrac@hotmail.com

and I will do my best to get in contact with you!

All my best!

Remember... Only the strong get this wonderfull gift called LUPUS!!!

Good Times!!! Good Times!!!

I went to go pick up one of my very best Friends

from the airport.

She is from Chicago, IL.

So she was a bit amazed to find no crowds waiting around...

(what so ever,at all.... the whole 20 min. I was late getting there!)

"Yo, Biatch! Get in the g'd- dam truck!"
~inside joke~

" Okay.... no problem!"

We packed up her things and drove back

to Collbran, for some fun in the sun...

Her Birthday was approaching soon,
and I wanted to do something nice...



SURPRISE!!
"Geleukkege Verjordoag!"
* Gefeliciteerd met je verjaardag!*
(depending as to which part of Holland you are from...)


~I believe she was surprised..~

She made her birthday wishes and then

put out the burning candles..

(with her fingers..?)

And of course, it was time to celebrate!!!

~note how big that bottle of champagne was!~

not the normal size for sure...

Then it was time say say our good-bye's...

We had a blast! To say the least...

Till next time, my friend!

Tot ziens!

~"Smoke 'em while ya got 'em!!"~

HAPPY 28Th BIRTHDAY, Sheri L. !

F.Y.I.

I no longer do this anymore...

Nor do I look like this....

~only in my dreams~

I now screech,
(& am discussed, and cry on the inside)
when ever I see a recent
photo of myself.

~I just cannot believe
that, is how I really look!~

Samantha!

I was so happy to see that you left a comment!

Thank you so very much.

I truly appreciate, and know just

exactly how you feel...

I am also struggling with the fact that my body

is not the way I had always known it to be...

Most days I just want to stay in my comfy p.j.'s,

(because none of my normal clothes fit anymore)

just sulk, and feel upset with myself.

I know that will only make things worse...

So, knowing it is going to be an up hill battle...

I try with all my might, to put everyone

and everything, on hold...

So I can finally try to take care of 'me'.
It's not easy...

Believe me!

~I just have to believe that with a desire

to "love life again"...

things will begin to improve.~

Here's to conquering our everyday life struggles!

And here's to you, Samantha!
Keep it up!

(P.S. you inspired me to update my blog.)

Thank You!

I know this is long over due...

I want to thank everyone

from the bottom of my heart,

For all your kind words,
thoughts, prayers, and wishes.

Which none have gone unnoticed,
and were very much appreciated.

Once again~
I Thank You so very much!

Ahhh... Honey!!!

Bruce got a new barbecue,

and decided to cook us some dinner...

Our local black bears came over to see

what was smelling soo good...

Meanwhile, Buddy and I took a walk out to the mailbox...

Hey, mom... What's dad doing?

Don't worry, he is just cooking us some dinner.

But mom... That does not look very good...

Oh, great! I knew we should not have left him alone!

Come on, mom! Lets go save daddy!!!

Got Wood?

With winter fast approaching,

Bruce, Buddy, and I decided to drive up into

the mountains to cut some trees down

for our stock of firewood...

On the way up we got to experience
mother nature's master piece...

The photo's just do not show how truly

beautiful everything is...

This is the view from where we decided to

stop and cut, not bad... hey?

Bruce and my 'mini boss' chainsaw,

on top the stack of trees we cut down...

After several hours of hard work,

we made our way down the mountain...

Looking down, to where we will soon be...

Driving through the Aspens...

We made it home, and Bruce was pretty

proud of all the hard work we did,

and the growing pile of wood...

A few of our neighbors came over to help stack

the wood that we recently split...

After several trips to the mountains,

we finally have our stock of wood for the winter..

It was a long day, and everyone was exhausted...

Buddy included.

Our First Snow Fall:

I woke up this morning to find a blanket of snow

covering everything...

Here are a few shots of the trees in our yard...

It is simply beautiful...

This big oak tree had tons of leaves on it
just a few days ago...

The deer were having a great time grazing
on our back field...

What a wonderful thing to wake up to.